Daddy, I miss you every single day.
The day we lost you changed my life and me forever. I never thought watching you walk inside was the last time I would see you alive. I knew you struggled and I tried to help in every way I could. I know only you could make that change. The night I found you still haunts me. I was too late to be able to help you and though I called for help, and still tried to, it was just too late. I made those devastating calls to family. You were my rock and always by my side. My worst nightmare and biggest fear came true that night. This year will be 5 years without you. Its been really hard on me and our family. I know you are no longer in pain and that gives me some peace. I forgive you and know you did not plan to leave so soon let alone me being the one to find you in that state.
I have been and will always be so grateful to be your daughter. You taught me so much and my 30years with you was not long enough but I treasure that time. You were such a kind soul and would help all in need regardless of what you were dealing with. That is something I carry with me and carry on with my son who still remembers and adores his Gramps!
I love you always and forever.

I will never forget the day you left me. I am so sorry that I didn’t know or didn’t realize what was happening to you that morning. I am so sorry. By the time I got you turned over and got help it was too late. I will forever have that nightmare in my mind. I miss you so very much. I love u

The day I got the call will always be the worse day of my life. For you were my twin my ride or die. The day you left this world I lost apart of me. That can never be replaced. Its been 7 and half years and I still miss you every second of everyday. I know you are watching over us. Your son is so much like you. I know he misses you like crazy. Your daughter can miss what she cant remember, but she will always know her mom was a beautiful soul.

This year will be 9 years without you.. I cannot even fathom that. I still miss you as much as I did when you first left us. I’ll never forget you telling me the only thing you did right in life was choosing me to be your kids Mother. You said this to me while I begged you to get help so you could be here with us. You said you knew I could do this alone if this devil took you out. I’ve been doing it alone for almost 9 years. Kayden is almost 16(he looks JUST like you.), and Adalynn(YOUR ANGEL) is almost 12.(she ACTS just like YOU.) doing this alone has been one of the loneliest roads I’ve ever been down. The absence of you is felt in every birthday, Christmas, sporting event, 1st day of school, Daddy Daughter dance, watching our son go out playing running back and dominating(GOSH I know you would be cheering SOOO loud.) Nick.. you were right I could do this without you. And I find a tiny bit of peace knowing that you are at peace but I would do anything that was asked of me to bring you back. For me, for Kayden, for Addy. I needed you, and they need their Daddy. I love you and miss you more than words can express. RIH and please always watch over us.

Mom, I will always miss you.
I hope you are out of pain and in peace.
I love you and thank you for being my mother after all the struggles you endured. I know you did not mean to get so lost but I forgive you.
I will miss you everyday until we meet again.
Rest easy mom I love you.

My dear son Jacob was a very outgoing and loving soul. He loved to ride his bike and play tennis. He would take trips and rides without notice. He was a great friend to so many people, often making them feel inspired with his encouraging words. Sadly he was poisoned with fentanyl on May 30, 2020. His life was cut short at the age of 31. He is thought about every second of everyday. He is loved beyond measure. I look forward to the day when we will be together again. I love you very much my dear son. Love Mom. 💔