Every day is a real struggle

I've been married for eight years and I have been clinically depressed since the birth of my second child four years ago.

Every day is a struggle just to get through it. I have nothing to give our relationship and feel nothing for my husband except the daily irritations of living with someone.

I don't want to tackle the problem because I am afraid that it might lead to us splitting up. I couldn't bear to do this to my children, I am sure they would be devastated.

Meanwhile, my feelings stretch from neutral to not being able to stand being around him.