Thursday, November 17, 2011

Breakfast

This is my breakfast for today. I made scramble eggs with dory fish,onion and zucchini. Sedapnya. Simple punya makanan pun sedap sampai mau nangis.mungkin appetite aku tabrapa na ada these days so bila dapat makanan yg best sikit dari biskut tu mungkin kesedapan tu melampau smh perlu beli barang2 utk dimasak lg esok.kalau tabeli dan tabawak dr rumah merepek je aku makan. Perlu cipta makanan yg berlainan juga.supaya aku tabrapa boring.ok sekarang ni aku da mengantuk.makan breakfast pun salah tamakan pun salah -_-' tetapi,aku dabawak 2 pisang utk lunch and pre-workout.

Smalam kan aku pegi 4 hours,first 2 hours partner dengan this one girl.nothing special about the first class.2nd class aku kena partner dgn this 6ft tall korean guy.I'm 5ft so yeah.na punch pun agak susah sebab dia pegang pun tinggi.not that difficult if aku yg punch and he's the feeder,tetapi bila aku yg jadi feeder, aku la susah.lenguh tangan aku haha da la laju gila.2nd round thai pad and belly pad kan.masa jab cross left uppercut-feeder croco-and front kick tu I told him to bend down a bit sebab dia tapakai groin guard dan aku tanak la terfront kick his member kan hahaha he did bend down la tapi....Mark suruh buat laju,dan masa my attempt utk buat laju tu agak salah aim anddddddddd terkena juga hahaha aku tatau la aku buat kuat ke ta.rasa bersalah hahahaha I did 200 sit ups and 200 back extensions.rasa na patah pinggang. 3rd day in a row aku buat mcm itu. Dan countless of kicking and punching.kalau turun 1kg jugak aku tatau la. Oh aku ada purchase Jillian Michaels 4 in 1 workout dvd.I'm pumped to try 30 days shred.30 mins each level. Recommended to allow 10 days per level. Ada cardio kickboxing juga. Nacari original dvd memang la takan jumpa di Malaysia ini ye.so this is good enough bila aku tade masa napegi training nnt.

Ok aku nabuat keje.bai

Friday, November 11, 2011

Weight loss and Training

ok sekarang ni aku malas na update.sebab hidup aku busy counting calories hahaha tade tade.busy dengan training dan membusykan diri dengan benda lain.hari hari baca blog orang tetapi agak malas mau update.macam tiada apa yang menarik utk di update.kebanyakan gossip semua utk disimpan oleh diri sendiri dan kawan kawan.

Anyway, aku dakurus :D sebanyak 7kg je lol 18kgs to go.Punya la aku training hari hari since September aku turun 7kg je -_-' jadi....mungkin akan buat 4 hours of training 5 days a week kalau Nizam tabunuh aku dgn training dia yang macam macam dan Ken punya training yang drill sikit tapi lama gila.satu drill ada la 2-3mins.i was 30 mins late on Wednesday,just in time for my turn with Ken.and hmmm seperti biasa his drills sangat lama dan trademark dia 'puncher one knee on the floor - jab cross 32' then 'puncher lie down on the floor-jab cross-64' thingy.It was Ken's class but Nizam being Nizam memang sengaja mau buli aku said 'Ken bagi dia lg 3 set jab cross 64 sebab dia lambat' -____-' dia tau ta jab cross 64 on the floor ni susah utk orang gemok mcm aku?? ye dia tau tapi dia sengaja smh smh dan dia sengaja berdiri di tepi aku atau di belakang aku masa training walaupun dia tau aku tabole buat kalau trainer ada tepi aku.pastu na jerit 'KICK HARDER!!!! jangan malas! twist more! higher on front kick!!!' stressnya aku dengar dia menjerit.pastu semalam habis jab cross 64 dia cakap dengan ken lagi 'Ken,orang lain buat shield,biar Ruch amik bag,left right croco 200' -_____-' kau tengok la perangai dia ni

Terpaksa jaga makan balik sebab walaupun aku training hari hari minimum 2 jam pun kalau tajaga makan aku akan turun 1.2kg je macam bulan lepas :( jadinya i have to eat some healthy stuff and maybe kurangkan sikit nasi dan yang goreng juge.sebab target 25kgs turun by April next week.Kenapa April?sebab aku napegi bercuti di Perhentian lagi so aku tanak be the fat one among my friends yang semua kurus gila dan di panggil dugong di darat -_-' sebenarnya aku tade kisah sangat pun la kalau kawan kawan aku yang rapat panggil macam itu sebab dabiasa,tapi kalau kau itu lepak ngan aku pun jarang mau play name calling ni memang mintak elbow aku la.Eh aritu kan aku shopping baju seluar training dan jegging sebab semua da longgar,aku dabole pakai tshirt M :') Lupa suda bila aku pakai size M ini.mungkin 3-4 tahun lepas kot.dan jegging yg selalunya aku beli 3XL kali ini aku dabole pakai size XL dannnn jeans biasa aku damuat pakai size 32.fuiyo gila ah.baru turun 7kg je pun.habis la duit aku kalau tiap2 bulan mau beli baju baru.yang penting aku mau setup small area utk aku punya training dirumah.mau beli punching bag and thai pad.tapi punching bag tatau naletak dimana :( mak kata 'jangan letak dalam rumah!runtuh rumah mak ni nanti' haritu kata bole :( sekarang databole pule.

oh masa aku sampai studio lambat tu this one girl asked me if i lost weight masa training and Angie told her i lost 5 kgs.aku cakap to date 7kg and she asked how so aku kasitau la dia macamana kan.then dia cakap 'waaahhhhh you are my inspiration now.i admire u.i wanna be like u but i cant eat cereal in the morning because i have lactose intolerance' awww terharu sekejap aku ni.aku suruh je dia makan dengan soya.aku juga tabole minum full cream milk ke apa sebab perut tabrapa ok so aku minum HL low fat and low in lactose.sebab itu la hidup aku ni busy sikit dari dulu.fikir namasak apa esok for breakfast and lunch and pre workout.na budget2 calories tolak calories burned masa workout segala smh smh and fie said im addicted to muay thai and torturing my body :s untuk self defense je kot tapi kalau sampai bole jadi fighter pun best juge.aku usha camp site kat thailand,1 to 1 training costs 500baht, so equals to what,rm5?gila murah kot.3 bulan intensive training cost arounf rm220.murahnya la.kalau la kat sini murah mcm itu,memang aku amik intensive je.tapi agak poyo je najadi fighter kan haha

meleret da aku membebel ini.sebab tiada keje sekarang dan agak mengantuk.jadi merapu2 je.nanti aku update lagi kalau aku tabusy fikir menu namasak ok?bye

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Birthday Presents :D

This year,not exactly on my birthday I received lots of presents. Most of it related to muay thai stuff. I got an ankle guard (I hurt my ankle while doing 100 of croco) and training pants from Nizam, Everlast training gloves that I liked so much from Starbucks Jamming peeps,2pcs of blouse from my sisters and an ice cream cake also from the SJ peeps :D I'm lovin my life so far.
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Pain in the ribs

Okay so i did promise to update everyday but so many things going on lately either i dont have the time or i was plain lazy haha Anyway i've been busy last week with tender preparations and....work that i didnt have the time to go to the studio.its weird that i feel so sore and my body was aching if i stop for a few days.

Last Monday i went for 4 hours of training since my awesome partner Sabrina was around.i forced her to stay for the 2nd class.why?because i can only have a good workout with her as my partner.i always have issues with other students.its either they cant hold the focus pad and shield properly (it will hurt them in a way) or they get distracted easily.Anyway,during that 2nd class,Nizam who was the trainer for the 1st and 2nd class on that particular day,was gonna show us the demo like he usually does.and because he have issues with me (thats another story) i had to hold the shield for the demo.the drill was lid front kick-lid knee-rear knee-rear croco. he literally did front kicked me hard and his lid knee was so powerful,i felt the pain in my ribs instantly.dont ask me what happen after that.i can barely breathe.i had to go to the balcony for some air.maybe i didnt held it right but still it hurts as fuck.i thought it will go away but i couldnt sleep that very night.it hurts real bad.i cant lift my arm,i couldnt bend over,i have difficulties breathing etc i didnt get to go for training for a week.until i decided to go for a traditional massage.the girl told me it was varicose veins that caused me my pain.Thanks Kru -_-' it was a very very painful massage.but felt better a day after :D Thank god i was holding the shield.i could've died if someone ever attack me like that without the shield. anddddddddd i learned one deadly technique. Double uppercut. right after Nizam showed us how its supposed to be done,he looked at me and say 'dont try this at home,kalau orang tu mati i tak tau ok' -_-' the gf must have told him something.

i know my english is @#$%^&* now.and i realised i dont speak a word of japanese anymore :( i will try to work on both languages.sigh

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Kickboxing Day 2

Its such struggle to find a parking spot in SS15 in the evening.I was so pissed off!yeah I get upset so easily.the haze is getting worse,no rain,and your sountry is so hot -_-' I started to sweat the minute I left Mesiniaga.oh I forgot to mention that I'm no longer in TLS.I'm with Mesiniaga for....almost 6 months now.wow how time flies. Itu lain entry cerita.Anyway,this is what we did today

Warm up

Stretching.it was quite painful as my body is still sore from Monday's training.

Focus pad :
Jab cross 4 - 10x
Jab cross 8 - 10x
Jab cross 16 - 10x
Jab cross 32 - 10x
Jab cross 64 - 2x (jab cross 64 double is a torture.no joke)

Push up - 10

Shield :
Left Front kick,rear croco,left croco - 10x
Left front kick,rear knee,left croco - 10x
Left front kick, double rear croco - 10x

Croco - 10sets
Knee - 10sets
Front kick - 10sets

Focus pad/shield:
Jab cross,croco,cross - 10x
Jab cross,front kick,cross - 10x
Jab cross,left uppercut,croco - 10x
(I forgot the rest)

Sit ups - 50x
Leg extension - 50x (had to skip this one)
Back extension - 50x

Few other punching combo

Counter attack training

Nizam was actually being kind today. Lotsa 2mins break and swapping so it wasn't a hardcore one today BUT I still sweat a lot.like really a lot.peluh mcm curah air dr atas kepala -_-' blue black in both legs sebab dia suruh make one straight line kasi croco and kami kena tahan one by one.sakit sial.padahal bukan kuat pun dia buat -_-' hilang jap sakit2 badan dr aritu,arini sakit lain pule -_-'

I was thinking to go for training 4 times a day,2 hours each day.I'll give myself sometime to get used to all the pain nizam will cause me.in 2 or 3 weeks,I'll go for 4 hours.we'll see
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Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Kickboxing Day 1

I promised myself to update this blog to see my progress.oh well i wanted to make a quick entry last night but cant be bothered anymore.I was preparing some stuff for breakfast and lunch and thought if i go for kickboxing training i'd be fucking thin.no joke.ok lets see what my crazy trainer did to me yesterday

Run for 10 mins (i decided to skip this one.i always skip running haha)

Shadowboxing:
Jab cross - 10x
hook - 10x
uppercut - 10x
front kick 10x
knee - 10x
jab cross left uppercut - 10x
jab cross left hook - 10x
jab cross 4 - 10x
knee 4 - 10x
front kick 4 - 10x

then he shouted 'Down! push up 10!!!'

Push up - 10x
Squat - 10x
Push up (again) - 10x
Squat (again) - 10x
Push up (yes,again) - 10x
Squat (yes,again) - 10x

2 mins break.'Enjoy your 2 mins break guys!'- EVERYTIME he says that i know he's going to kill us

Focus pad (left hand) Shield (right hand)
jab cross,rear croco,cross - 15x
jab cross,left uppercut,right knee - 15x
jab,rear croco,cross, left croco - 15x
jab cross,left hook,cross,rear front kick - 15x
jab,right hook,cross,left front kick - 15x
jab cross, left knee, right knee - 15x
jab cross, left front kick, rear front kick 15x

Focus pad (right hand) Shield (left hand)
Cross,left knee,cross,rear croco,left croco - 15x
jab cross,double left knee - 15x
jab cross,rear front kick,cross - 15x
ok i cant remember the rest of this round

Shield
Rear croco - 25x
left croco - 25x
left knee - 25x
rear knee - 25x
left front kick - 25x
rear front kick - 25x

Focus pad
jab cross, left uppercut,right hook - 100x *nangis*

i think there were more,i cant remember all of them.i was sweating so much.my tshirt and tracksuit were wet!went for lepak with yaba,hamsah and latip,still sweating all the way when i went to giant,still sweating before i took a shower.my trainer is mental.his training is hardcore

This morning,my body is aching dammit -_-'

Sunday, September 4, 2011

Diet and Kickboxing

Hey hey!

i know i shouldve updated long ago but i couldnt be bothered.anyway i will start blogging again,maybe just quick and short updates from phone.mostly about what i eat and my training.I will start dieting,again(i know i know)after almost a week of raya.and i will also start my kickboxing training tomorrow. 4 hours per session, 3 times a week.i really hope my trainer wont kill me.he warned me the other day about not eating too much or i will suffer on monday :s i pigged out on my first n second raya. imagine 6 rounds of nasi dagang on 1st raya.mampus aku nabakar calories lagi nanti.i want to lose 25kg by next April.Wish me luck!

Anyway, a little late but i wish everyone a good Hari Raya and please be safe to those who are driving back from hometown.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

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Just a quick update from the studio.this is where I always go for my kickboxing training.gotta burn 1500 calories this evening.I have exceeded my calorie intake for the day :s not a good thing but I think I lost bit of weight since I can put on my M size kickboxing tshirt that I bought almost 5 years ago :D I have changed my eating habit.but ate small portion of rice this afternoon because I was craving for it.oh well I'll update more on my graduation,big brother's wedding and some other stuff.Later!
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Saturday, March 26, 2011

Lang Tengah

Nothing is more amazing than waking up to the sound of waves. Despite an awful boat ride,I'm finally here with my bestfriends and I'm going to be here until Monday. Its gonna be an awesome weekend.

Have a great weekend everyone!

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Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Rest In Peace.

Today,another hip hop legend passed away. I was listening to his songs and was watching his videos he did with Eminem and Snoop Dogg last night before I hit the bed.and today,I was reading my timeline on Twitter and found out Nate Dogg passed away.I was so shocked.the last time I heard about him was when he was recovering from strokes.The caused of death is still unknown.

Rest in peace Nate. You will be truly missed.
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Sunday, March 13, 2011

Chris Medina - What Are Words

This guy,this song made me cry.Beautiful beautiful song.its good to know such men still exist

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Training

I signed up for kickboxing 2 weeks ago and can't wait to get back to the studio for torturous trainings. Went quite few times already and I almost forgot how torturing the trainings are. Went there after work today and it was a bit different than what I did last week.Mula-mula suruh lari ( lari ye bukan jog,siap jerit 'run faster!)dan disebabkan badan aku daberat dan juga aku memang tabole nalari sangat sebab aku ada asthma,ok itu alasan sebenarnya aku memang suka skip apa2 activity yg melibatkan larian.anyway,5 mins punya run aku berhenti 4 kali dan hampir mati. Then macam biasa warm up pastu stretching. Itu tade masalah sangat.masih flexible juga la. Pastu mcm biasa juga jab cross uppercut hook semua.bila smpi nakena buat front kick,knee dan croco aku pancit suda :( ok mungkin aku macam merungut la kan tapi dulu aku lebih suka buat all the kicking than punching.

4 years ago:
I weight at 48kg-50kg. Pegi jogging atau gym sekali sekala.aku pegi training 4-5 times a week. Makan catu sebab zaman2 jahiliyah dulu banyak nakene pegi gig so perut kena flat. Size seluar paling kecik aku penah pakai 26.itu Stussy diaper pants aku zaman2 hip hop.Vege cracker dengan nescafe je every meal.Sit ups 200 everyday without fail.50 masa bangun pagi,50 masa lunch,100 before tido.sometimes more la sebab kat studio kena buat juga 50. Then leg rise 50 je aku mampu sebab memang kaki berat. Back rise selalu nya kena buat 50 but aku selalu buat 100. Dan aku pegi training 2 sessions (4 hours)

Sekarang:
I weight at 78kg. Tapegi jogging.only walking tu pun bole kira dengan jari je brapa kali. Size seluar sekarang ni kau tau brapa? 36 :( itu pun kena pakai men size sebab size 36 women size tamuat dengan aku :( Melantak nasi every meal kadang-kadang kenyang sampai muntah. Sit up memang tabuat langsung dirumah. Training kena buat 50 juga tapi 3-4 kali berenti sebab perut mcm org mengandung. Leg rise tabole buat sebab recovering from surgeries. Back rise 50 juga berenti 3-4 kali padahal senang gila buat. Aku pegi 2 hours (1 session) je itu pun aku tasabar tunggu pukul 8 nabalik.

Sedih ke tasedih :( aku nakurus balik la :( tapi susah nya la na avoid nasi. Aku tatau la apa kejam nya nasi tu. Dan masa betulkan technique croco tu bole ta depan-depan org kaki aku dua-dua cramp arrrrgggghhhhh stress nya aku.semua org cam pandang aku 'si gemok ni lagi.asik je kasi alasan atau masalah' stress stress. I know I should stop whining and buat je apa yg perlu tapi aku stresssssssss da la healthy food sini mahal gila pastu aku tatau masak.takan aku namakan biskut je hari-hari. Kawan-kawan aku semua suka makan. Stress lg

Ok I feel much better now.ok bye

Ps: bukan na menunjuk dapandai update guna phone,aku talarat na capai laptop.penat sangat. Babai
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Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Jay-Z And Eminem Perform Renegade Live on Letterman



Aaaaaa you bloody sexy mofo! I love his performance on David Letterman. Those lucky people just stand there like watching some high school band wtf i would kill to get the ticket man.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Testing 1 2 3 4 5

Disebabkan aku poyo,aku na post gambar laki aku.he's mine. Harap maklum
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Wednesday, January 19, 2011

- First vacation this year on March to Lang Tengah Island with my besties :) Its been a while since we had a vacation together.I had to force her to allocate a few days to go on a vacation because she's a workaholic and she cant be away from work for too long -_-'

- Convocation will be held on May but I'm not sure the date.until I know the exact date,I cant book my vacation with my mates -_-' (update: selalunya dorang kata end of may of beginning of june so trip kali ni jadi.yay!)

- im so sick of my yoyo diet.kejap diet kejap rasa 'tape la esok diet lg'. cravings attack gila babi melanda.

- im so sick of promises.serious ni aku bosan.

- these are the books that i bought/borrowed untuk melalaikan aku dr rokok dan lepak.i've only read 3 of them.im on 'a bend on the road now'



Me Gook - Written by Brian Hartenstein.This is a good book.im not saying this because i know Brian.Bila aku baca buku ni semua emotions ada.based on his experience married to a korean woman dan things he have to put up dengan Asian culture

A bend in the Road - Yana yg hadiahkan aku buku ni :) tengah baca

Dear John - Seen the movie.of course the book is better than the movie walaupun movie ada Channing Tatum <3

Message in the Bottle - Borrowed from Haya.cerita yg sedih.almost made me cry


seen the movie.tapi belum sempat nabaca lagi

My sister's keeper - datgk movie.cried.im pretty sure this book will make me cry
okay ni aku baca yang terakhir.

- aku malas la na update dammit walaupun aku banyak benda nacerita

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Happy New Year

i hope its not too late to wish everyone a very happy new year!tiade new year resolution ye cik kak semua.or cik abang.i just got back from a birthday dinner.my little sister is 23!wow how timeflies.baru mcm na update sikit2 la kan.aku malas sebenar nya -_-'

- Passed all subjects on my final semester.Convo on May.Alhamdulillah walaupun bukan 3.0 kan.cukup bersyukur da aku lulus Economics dgn C.aku rasa lecturer tu mungkin kesian tgk paper aku yg buat formula dan jalan kerja sesukati aku.


- Bakal untuk start cereal diet bersama2 N,Farra,Tatum dan Monday Makeover members.kita tengok bole buat ke tabole buat.mati la hari2 makan cereal je

- Attended cousins wedding last Saturday.had high fever on that very nigh
t sebab cuaca malaysia terlampau panas,aku tabole handle.kau kata la aku poyo ke apa,aku memang tabole handle cuaca panas malaysia ni.da la panas,kena tanya pulak bila nakawin.bosan betul aku -_-' bukan salah aku kot kalau cousin2 kawin awal.

- kepada stalker blog dan fb aku (and you know who you are),kau bole ta buat hal kau sendiri?dan jangan menyibuk hal aku?tasemesti nya im not up to your s
tandard,tade org nakawan ngan aku.and i dont have to made him up.walaupun aku rasa i dont have to prove it to you,untuk senyapkan mulut longkang kau,aku tunjuk je ok.sorry la bukan kau sorang je laki dalam dunia ni.aku ta batak pun dengan orang macam kau


- im grateful to have such lovely people around me.i know they will be there for me no matter what.dan aku pun tau sapa yang gunakan aku :) taperlu berpura-pura.dan disebabkan aku terpaksa amik injection untuk stopkan period(merehatkan luka di dalam perut) dan effect dia macam menopause,kawan2 aku terpaksa bersabar dengan mood swing yg betul2 bole swing dalam beberapa saat.aku sayang korang

Masa mula2 aku na buat entry tadi macam2 dalam kepala aku.sekarang ni macam da tade apa natulis.bodo gila.macam tah apa2 je.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Updates

i was supposed to get my long due assignment done.i seriously cant be bothered to study or get all my assignments done,at all.so i decided to update my blog instead.i've been wanting to post few new entries but...malas la.dont know where to start.so now here we go

Aku tulis sampai situ je then terus malas na update blog.so now betul2 update haha

1.Had 2 in 1 operation on October 4th.i had my appendix and cyst removed.long story short,my movements are quite limited.started gym a day before i had that tummy cramp attack(i thought it was period pain which is true jugak sebab ada cyst)still on recovery process.no weight lifting but went for walking for couple of days already.
masa aku kena attack dengan sakit2 tu semua,aku igt period pain kan tapi ada la 10 kali ganda sakit dia,aku sempat mengucap dulu sementara menunggu painkiller sampai haha i thought i was gonna die.no,seriously.
comel je kawan2 datang melawat membawa bunga,kad dan membuat bising dalam bilik smpi kena tegur ngan nurse kan haha ada kawan2 mak aku yg datang melawat kemudian tanya bila SPM pun ada hahaha tabole handle betul.sangat2 berharap aku taperlu melalui operation apa2 in future sebab sakit gila kot -_-' napegi toilet pun bersusah payah bagai.na jalan pun susah.tapi best sebab abah beli katil warna putih utk aku(aku guna tilam je kot sbb tabole afford utk membeli katil sendiri :p )
it was so nice of my bestmates to kidnapped me a week after im back from the hospital dan makan2 secret receipe.pantang seminggu je,bole?siap lepak starbucks layan choc caramel haha i think i lost about 5 kgs tapi ta bertahan lama sebab kawan2 semua jadi syaitan nirrajim.

2. final exam da lepas dan juga this is my final semester.hopefully i dont have to re sit for that bloody economics paper for the 3rd time.bole nangis kot tengok soalan yg kau confirm kau tabole jawab.kalau lulus bole aku tukar keje hahaha

3.my english is getting worse.mmg cam haram la kan

4. ada sesapa na offer aku keje ta?

5.i hate long distance relationship

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

oi wtf my entry got deleted.pfft cant be bothered to write it all over again.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

on Diet mode.kali ni serious kot sebab i signed up for gym last 2 days.gonna start going to the gym daily after final.to avoid white rice,white bread and other fave food is never easy.i keep telling myself that i will eat those yummy food when i reach my goal.i still take something light before i go to class though.i'll try to get my 2005 weight back before March next year.in 6 months.tapi rasa mcm kesian dengan diri sendiri kena catu makan gila babi :( 30kg to lose.mati la aku.confirm kene pegi gym hari2 ni.aerobics juge kot walaupun aku tapernah try and agak pemalu na try.




Finally someone who accept me for who i am :) welcome to my world stevo

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Who gives a flying fuck if i only have 10 followers?Exactly,no one.kenapa la kau kemaruk followers?blog ni sebenarnya for me to let it all out,so i dont take my anger out on other people.initially created to avoid me from killing people.i started blogging since i was about 15 or 16,it worked so far.belum lagi bunuh orang.dan bukan nya na cari publisiti ke apa kan?yang kau sibuk sangat natgk followers supaya kau bole ckp blog kau cool la kan,blog kau best,blog aku crap.memang crap pun tapi macam tade kene mengena ngan kau,menggelabah apahal sial? serious dowh,get a life.

To an Indian lady who works for Atlas Vending and picked up my call this afternoon,you should go for a training or something la kan.kau kan in customer service dept,angkat phone tu elok2 la,aku customer,aku buat report pasal machine bodoh kau tu rosak,budak2 ni naminum air,bukan aku complain laki kau main ngan pompuan lain ke apa.paham ta pasal keje,mengamuk ngan aku apasal sial? monyet betul.dan aku call balik sebab orang kau tadatang since last week.kau suruh orang datang hari sabtu,masa orang takeje buat apa bodoh?nasib baik aku tabole na call superior kau terus untuk complain perangai kau yg kurang ajar dengan customer walaupun mula2 aku cakap dengan sopan dan santun.kau dibayar untuk pick up phone,terima report customer kot kan.aku bukan harass kau verbally ke apa,lain kali walaupun kau PMS,walaupun you're having a bad day,walaupun kau tengah tade mood,bila customer call,be professional.da la aku cakap malay ke english ke kau tapaham -_-' haih bikin wa panas je lu ni.

Gym session will start as soon as im done with my final exam.i failed my Eco last 2 semesters.i have to resit for the bloody paper this semester.learn nothing.i still have a hard time to understand the fuck Eco is all about.kalau aku jadi Prime Minister,aku akan bubarkan subject Math,Add Math,Accounting dan Economics.walaupun aku tau akan menjatuhkan negara,aku akan tetap bubarkan.sebab aku kena struggle kot subject2 tu semua.itu pun KALAU la aku jadi.tolong la jangan fail lagi.final semester ni -_-' bila na grad kalau asik fail je subject yang sama.mati la kena amik lagi nanti.bab2 mengira2 algebra la,curve turn to the right or left,U curve,kejadah tu semua susah aku na paham :( terasa bodoh pulak.haih jauh menyimpang,sebenarnya aku nakasi tau,lepas exam nanti aku bakal jadi kurus :D dulu i gave up my kickboxing and gym for my uitm and Japanese classes.and I gained 30kgs in 4 years.best kan?

Mungkin juga aku akan belajar memasak.mungkin la.aku ni pemalas napegi dapur.dan mungkin aku akan belajar berenang.i will sign up for swimming class once i lose weight.nanti susah la nacari swimming suit,ataupun diving suit.

Actually,im having difficulties to sleep everyday.will only feel sleeping at 7 in the morning.masa tu da nakena pegi keje kan.susah betul la ini macam.haiyo


Sunday, September 19, 2010

aku tatau nabuat title apa so entry kali ni tanpa tajuk la ye

esok start keje.macam malas kot.cuti pun mcm da nadekat 2 minggu kan.i cut my hair,so short that my mom told my uncle im her 3rd son -_-' been spending most nights with Puteri,mamak and Mafi.talked about EVERYTHING.gossip yang tapenah surut.

After few months of so-called relationship with J,i decided to end it few days ago.i cant stand a clingy and needy guy.i mean seriously,i was supposed to be the one who needed attention more than a guy right?and was supposed to be the drama queen and the one who constantly update my sad,my-bf-doesnt-love-me status on Facebook.maybe i'd like my relationship to be more drama-free and that didnt happen.i was so sick of dealing with his big girl attitude.and his friends called me a bitch for making him feel hopeless and sad all the time.

i've been told by this one person that my ego is so high and thats the reason why im single for 6 freakin years.the truth is i rather be single than to be in a relationship with someone who is ignorant,pathetic and thinks he's all that(i know you're reading this :) ).and maybe im just too comfortable being single.and maybe,i like being in a safe zone,where i know i wouldnt get hurt by anyone.best kot jadi single kan?taperlu report pegi mana,na deal dengan jealousy bagai,nangis2 la ape la.sakit otak dowh

the ones i bother to put up with are my godsons.Ryan and Faiqqal.lain2 kalau tabole blah tu memang tabole blah juga la kan?bukan la aku ni rasa diri cantik ke best ke apa la kan but then banyak sangat drama dengan lelaki lelaki yg aku jumpa.naik menyampah.kalau aku takawin juga by 30,aku amik anak angkat.i cant picture myself getting married,but i can always picture myself being a mother.cakap pasal being a mother ni kasi aku marah dengan abandon babies yang menjadi2 sekarang ni.marah nya bila baca sesukati bapak kau je na buang anak sana sini.tambah la lagi dosa tu.dosa zina tu datentu besar,kalau dia hidup masa kau buang dan ada orang jumpa tape la.ni kau buang dia hidup,sebelum orang jumpa dia meninggal,macam mana?tade ke rasa kesian,sikit pun sayang kat baby tu.dia tade buat salah pun kat kau.dia jadi hantu haunt hidup kau baru la kau tau kan.

masalah terbesar sekarang ni,aku na diet tapi aku tapenah diet makan ke apa la kan.harus la aku pegi gym exercise.tunggu aku habis last sem ni yg feels forever baru aku pegi.masalah kedua kepada masalah terbesar ni apa lagi kalau bukan duit kan.haihhhhhh penat la pikir duit duit.kan best kalau kaya kan?

Do you believe in online love? (cehh tetiba kan hahaha)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Raya Post

There's nothing interesting about raya this year.no diff from previous years.panas gila la mungkin kat kampung.aku bole je duduk dalam bilik air mandi sejam ke dua jam je sebab tatahan panas.sebenarnya masa aku post entry ni aku kat starbucks,sangat panas yg nembuatkan aku tabole na fikir.your country is very hot la -_-' apa kata aku post gambar je.










oh jap ada few diff kot.cousins aku tertambah2 anak,dan anak sedara aku dah masuk uni.diorang panggil aku mak ngah -__-' sedih dowh,terasa diri da tua.oh cuba kau tengok baju kurung aku tu.dulu kan aku igt size aku tade dijual dipasaran.sedih kan.

i thought of wearing my last year's baju raya because im fucking broke.then my little sister was kind enough to share her money(from my parents) to buy baju raya.disebabkan aku malas napikir sangat,aku amik je baju kat sek9 yang siti paksa aku try the other day.mula2 aku na amik size L tp disebabkan peha yg ni cantik sangat tabole muat,so aku tanya la adik aku kalau aku bole amik baju size L then kain size XL hahaha last2 aku amik size XL sebab adik aku tanak buat jahat bulan puasa -___-' baju bunga bunga merahhhhh.

oh nasib baik manusia manusia yang aku tasuke tade kat kampung selama aku berada disana.buat semak je pun kalau ada.dan aku agak pelik la ngan orang tua yg na condemn semua benda yg anak2 sedara dia buat,belajar ni semua.kau buat hal kau sudah la kan.sibuk orang na amik course apa la,sibuk orang tabalik raya la,ha ye la semua orang je buruk,kau je la yang best.wtf

aku balik sini raya ke 3 malam.mungkin aku lebih selesa duduk shah alam kot.dad's birthday was on 12th but we didnt get to do anything,sebab tiada kedai kek yg bukak.na wish pun dia sibuk ngan adik beradik dia.last2 manusia yg aku tasuka tu juga la buat surprise utk bapa aku.tapi agak tajadi sebab kek dia tinggal dalam kereta,dan ingat balik masa kitorg da masuk highway hahaha effort ada bagus la tu haha

Kenapa la kawan2 aku ni raya sampai 2 minggu -_-'
Sebenarnya nabuat raya entry semalam but got carried away with ste on msn.so esok la aku buat

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Moved on

A year ago,i had a very tough time to forget this one guy.The one that i have a crush on for years.I moved on.It was very hard for me because I think i have fallen deeply in love with him.double the challenge because i never had the chance to tell him what i felt about him.and knowing that i would get rejected,stopped me from doing that.I didnt talk to him for almost a year now.I just wish him the best.I forbid myself from listening to few songs that would probably remind me of the feeling i used to have for him.and listen to Eminem songs instead hahaha.it works so far.

oh last year i did mentioned i was waiting for the book Queen Tatum was sending me right?I finally got that on Oct 11th,2009. I remember when the book was handed to me.I was so excited and nervous hahaha i opened the parcel carefully.I almost cried to be honest haha then i took a picture of me and the book.I was in the office at that time btw.So,my annoying boss,wanted to borrow the book.and kinda ordered me to bring that book to the office when I'm done with it.Since it was a good day,i agreed.and what happened after returned me MY book made me realise that i should never even borrow him in the first place.



Anyway,i had few vacations since i last wrote.Cherating,Cameron Highland,A Famosa and Redang Island. I had so much fun in Redang.Even saw shooting starts,twice.we didnt wanna go back.i like the idea of waking up to the sound of waves.its refreshing.I'll just upload few of them here.Too lazy to write about the trips.Pictures from Redang


Sunday, September 5, 2010

Im back :)

it has been almost a year since i last blogged.i think imma start blogging again.too many things happened over the last 11 months.nothing to update really.i'll start writing again when im done with my assignments.to be honest,i only blog when i wanna get something off my chest without having to punch anyone in the face or taking my anger on anyone.just to put me out of my misery.im gonna do this again,except this time,maybe less swear words.i cant always swear at the age of 25,sounds immature aye?but yeah we'll see how long very nice,neat,polite post will lasts hahaha im going to pop a sleeping pill now.i'll write tomorrow.hmmm i dont pop pills for fun.its just that i need to work and i cant sleep at night,at all.so its unhealthy.my sleeping pattern is pretty fucked up atm.well,more like most of the time.feels weird to write again haha

Friday, July 9, 2010

Tagged by Tatum

5 years ago:
I was working at funa.had a very wonderful time with my working crews.began to mix around with malay people,finally.

5 months ago:
I was excited planning for few vacations and saved up my money just to have fun with fave ppl.i even pretend i was on the beach,laying down listening to the waves EVERYTIME i was about to put myself to sleep.

5 weeks ago:

I had my blackberry and that was when it became so addictive.busy ONLY with my phone until my friends got annoyed hahaha

5 days ago:
i started my week mourning over cashless bank account.it was only the 2nd week of the month and im broke.wtf

5 mins ago:
I was playing some card game in BB and won!not happy because i just finished my ciggerates.haih

5 things you can’t leave your house without:

My cellphones,perfume,at least few RM,ciggies and halls mint

5 things inside your purse/bags:
cellphones,perfume,keys,receipts and ciggies

5 people you love the most:
My family,the KBA peeps

5 things you believe in:
God, Love, Kindness, Loyalty, sincerity

5 songs i know all the words to:
The Warning,Love The Way You Lie, The Way I am,Just Lose it,Better than me.

5 foods/drinks i enjoy:

Singgang,Tom yam,asam pedas,iced tea and water.

5 things i'd do with £100 million:
40 million goes to my parents,30 million invest,12 million for my siblings, and the rest is for me to spend

5 places i would run away to:

To any islands.i have always wanted to live by the beach.do nothing.sits around and enjoy the sound of waves.pure bliss

5 things i would never do:
Never abandon any of my family member,like Tatum i could never kill a child.cant think of anything anymore haha

5 fav tv shows:

maybe csi,house and stuff like that.im not home most of the time.

5 greatest joys:
My family,my close friends,my godsons,money and more money

5 fav toys:
i used to have ultraman collection,my bb.hmmm thats all i guess

5 fears:
- losing my family.
- not being able to protect my sisters and mom from crazy people out there.
- to get so fat -_-'
- if my godsons dont regonize or remember me anymore :(
- die before i could change to be a better muslim

5 people i'm tagging:
no one -_-'

Thursday, September 24, 2009

raya was ok..but 4th day of raya have to work.smpi la skrg kat kat office lg.very babi.

im off to cherating on saturday.yippieeeeeeee.be back on monday.haih been waiting for this trip for months already.i hope my gps wont fuck me that bad cz im gonna be pissed.and im gonna be broke next month.so broke.so no good food entries for a while.

oh babes,google zac brown band 'whatever it is' song.my current fave song.its a country song :) im so mixed up

i was supposed to get my book this week.im still waiting for it,patiently.sabar fairuz sabar.dtg jugak nnt

Friday, September 11, 2009

Updates

1. meet up with Haya at Secret Receipe.wlupon tapuasa kan...haha ckp2 smpi pkl 9 lebih kot.mostly we update each other on relationships,books,celebrity and abt life.gila tabole blah kan...then off to miza,jumpa siti pulak.i didnt see her much since its fasting month anyway,malas aku mau pegi 1G.ckp2 lg..ketawa2...kutuk2 org..pastu balik kene marah pffft

2. buka puasa tahun ni byk dgn N...since i need to smoke,dia sorang je kot yg bole teman.aku kan taramai kwn.pathetic gila life aku haha.ohh ari ape tah aku jumpa maya & adina.she's 8 months old already...comellllll tp muka mcm bapak dia.maya tu bole dikatakan antara kwn paling lama aku kot.dr standard 1...dia da kawin..aku yg talepas2 lg haha

3. jumaat mlm,lepak with cjay then die ckp napegi rawang jumpa peezee :) ikut la skali...one good thing abt hanging out with them,stress-free.they r those people who dont treat me like a trash.they accept me the way i am.wlupon skang aku dagemok.pee volunteered to be my personal trainer in order to become one of the biggest loser pfft.tp byk la pulak ceramah die kan haha smpi umah pkl 4 pagi,n dad was waiting for me at the living room.hehe mmg la kene bebel

4. im offically addicted to rap and hip hop songs again..i listen to indo song verrryyyy less these days.eminem, lil wayne and soulja are my most current play.why all of sudden?because im going thru sort of break up(not a break up but sort of) and if i wanna stop myself from crying,im gonna have to smoke,a lot.n since i pity my lung for many months already i wanna cut down the intake,i listen to murder murder kill kill die die fuck here n there songs.PERFECT remedy for the broken hearted.

5. if im as hot as megan fox,im gonna make eminem marry me.oh i dreamt of him the other day,tgh akad nikah kawin ngan aku sialllll lmao it put smile on my face for the next 2 days.

6. i bought like 3 books last week



the time traveler's wife - as recommended by Haya the other day

For One More Day - started to like his book after reading The Five People You Meet in Heaven

Starting Over - Read the synopsis and bought it in MPH with fie n supin.and fie went 'ruz how come u always buy books about life?come on ur life is not that bad' LOL

7. and guess what people,i'll be getting my Eminem - The Way I Am book by raya.im soooo freaking excited.thanks to permaisuri.u really made my day.since i couldnt find the book in any local store,i have to ask permaisuri to purchase the book in Amazon.this gonna be the best present this year.i read the reviews,and i know it will be a good read.2 hari jugak la hati ta tenang.tgh sabar menunggu.
He is the best rapper EVER after Tupac.gosh im so obsessed

8. i hate my Part 6 subjects.Eco,Corporate Compliance and ETR.fuhhh da la susah...pastu eco byk nakene calculate plak tu...calculus is bunch of bitches.they confuse me pffft.

9. after raya getaway to Chearting :) we are planning on water activities and horseback riding kalo ada la kan...going to turtle sanctuary~ rasa2 bole adopt a baby turtle and bring back to shah alam ke ta?rasa2 sempat ta aku nakuruskan badan?bercuti di tepi pantai harus la bikini body kan haha

10. i cant feel the raya spirit for many years already.even before i stopped fasting for 4 years due to gastritis.org ckp sbb aku tade pasangan hidup (tha fuck?).sbb tu la aku ta excited.ta jugak wehhh masa ade bf dulu pun mmg taseronok pun.biasa2 je.for me raya is a family gathering.nothing much to be excited about.i dont eat rendang,i dont eat ketupat,i eat very little lemang.aku tamain mercun juge..sbb dr kecik mmg kitorg aik beradik tabole main.putus tgn kaki mata la ape sume dlm berita tu kan.hmmm whats wrong with me anyway?

Tagged by baiti

Nama timangan:
fairuz, ruz, pendek,gemok ....yg buruk2 tu sume nama timangan aku sbb dorang dengki aku comel wtf

Anda seorang yang:
complicated.bad-tempered BUT caring kot..kot je la.aku sndiri ta sure haha

Lagu kesukaan:
all time fave: Bella Luna by Jason Mraz, Everything by Micheal Buble, However by Glay, Beautiful Dreamer by Glay, Jie Kou by Jay Chou, An Jing by Jay Chou ..eh byk la plak

current: The Warning by Eminem, Kim by Eminem, Bagpipe From Baghdad by Eminem, We Made You by Eminem, Tired of Being Sorry by Enrique Iglasias, Kiss Me Thru The Phone by Soulja Boy, You're So Vain by Carly Simon...ok cukup taperlu list down lg

Movie terBesttt:
How to Lose a Guy in 10 days- i can watch this movie hundred times and still laugh like mad
Transformer - sbb yg no 2 aku tapenah tgk lg
Radit dan Jani - ini bukan movie kot.ada dlm DVD je.tgk byk kali pun still nangis jugak

Usually i like action and horror movie.tp ada masanya hormon perempuan lebih aku akan tgk romantic comedy movies.never really into malay movies tho but some of them are good no doubt abt that

Makanan kesukaan anda:
nakene list nama mknan ke jenis mknan?sbb byk neh

malay - singgang,asam pedas ikan kembung,ayam masak merah/kicap,tomyam dan selagi tade santan/taugeh/tomoto yg rupa tomato dlm masakan tu aku bole bedal
japanese - semua pun aku mkn sbb mkanan dia tade letak santan
western - tgk mood aku.mkn je ape pun sbb die pun tade santan kan.

annoying gila kan ckp santan santan haha

Minuman kegemaran anda:
aku suka lipton green tea,ribena,teh o ice.air suam ke..apa2 je pun aku minum asal tade susu pekat.bole muntah eeeee

Sikap yg membuatkan anda stress:
byk ni...takan aku na list semua.tape la aku list down je la kan
org bodoh sombong
org tade duit tp perasan mcm byk duit gila babi.
perempuan hodoh yg rasa diri sndiri cantik dan poyo
org2 yg kene culture shock ni haha
backstabber
suka cancel last minute
lembab selepas di ajar 10 kali


Benda yg mesti ada dlm beg:
mesti la telefon bimbit,kunci rumah,lighter + rokok, perfume, wallet yg hanya menyimpan matrix card,IC,driving license etc

Warna kesukaan anda:
Black,grey,brown and red

Kali terakhir anda menangis dan mengapa?
last week kot sbb aku tgk cerita Charlie and Me kat tv2.got carried away menangis mcm org gila sbb apa aku tatau.maybe sbb aku da lama takasi diri aku nangis.

Tag 6 rakan blog:
1.Permaisuri
2.N
3.Farra
4.Hezrin
5.Siamang
6.Rina

Thursday, August 13, 2009

so so

1. out for tony romas at curve with fie on monday.since i wasnt in the mood to attend class till 9.30 i decided to leave early.as usual i ordered tony romas famous ribs.i previously ordered the same one but i had smaller pieces of 4.this time it was on 2 pieces but it was huge.haih...mmg la ta abis mkn.i forced myself to finish it...tp mmg takan abis.on my way back from the curve i feel like puking the whole time in the car.itu la jadi nya kalo aku asik paksa diri mkn wlupon suda kyg.fie ordered seafood salmon or smtg but it was yummy.i had enuff of ribs,at least for the next 2 months.gonna try smtg else.but its good to see fie more often this few weeks.





2. went for movies on fri and saturday night.on friday we get to watch ' the proposal'at 12.05 am.fuh the movie i tell u...fuhh best gilaaaaaaaa...sweet namampos.since aku kan kini hati runsing jiwa kacau,im easily touched by love story.tp aku rasa mmg best.aku tareti mau buat review but its highly recommended.on saturday i went out with my lil sister.had johnny's after movie.oh aku tgk harry potter.im not a fan of potter.never really see the movies or read the book.but the movie was okay.my sister said the recent potter movie was not as good as the previous ones.ntah la aku tgk je pun....tu pun lama gila.

3. bought 2 books. babyland by holly chamberline and the undomestic goddess by sophie kinsella.suda lama aku tabeli buku.aku nabeli twenties girl by sophie kinsella tp masa tu aku tacukup duit.mahal sikit la...bila ada duit beli mknan mahal2...kan da tade duit haih


4. i was sick yesterday.but the night before went for bowling with siti n angah.i dont like bowling that much but i just need to go out.need some fresh air..smoke and gossip around.just to take mind off things for a while.angah ajar aku cara main bowling siot...sakit tgn aku :(

5. Al-fatihah to a friend of mine on her loss.her niece was only 2 months old when she returned to God.nape aku tatau..i dont think its the good time to ask...lgpun die tamenangis.she lost her other 4 years old niece last year on May 13th..just 2 days before her birthday.to add up,she just broke up with her bf 3 days ago.haih...babe,be strong.dont keep it inside,let it out.it is okay to be sad,its okay to cry.let me know if u need anything,u know i'll be there for u

6. aku mau pegi bercuti di tmpt yg senyap,ada laut ataupun pantai,affordable.sape ada cadangan?bila ada duit,kwn aku plak tade.bila dua2 da ade...hal lain plak muncul.babi sgt

7. oh aku baru terigt,aritu lps bowling kitorf lepak miza la kan...angah n ct digossipkan masa pegi kenduri adul aritu.so aku pun usik la sikit2..usik2 pasal kawin sume la..pastu si siti ni kuarkan soalan

siti: angah kau tanak feruz ke ngah?
angah: hah?
siti: kau tanak feruz ke?feruz ok ape
angah: boleh...tp kau kene ubah la
me: hah?ubah ape plak
angah:bukan ubah fizikal la...ubah perangai
me: haaa ubah perangai...
siti: yg pertama apa ngah?
angah:perangai
siti: yg kedua?
angah: perangai jugak
siti: yg ketiga?
me: perangai jugak ke?
angah: perangai jugak
me: -.-'

teruk sgt ke perangai aku T__T bole aku tanya ta..?yg sape2 kenal aku,ape perangai aku yg annoy kau gila babi?bagi yg takenal aku bole jugak kasi comment,tetapi berlapik skit...mood aku tatentu skang neh..kang baca comment yg lebih2 kang,aku reply secara memaki...tasengaja pun kadang2 tu..haih